Farewell Roomie

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2015 has showing his tongue for 16 days, but I have to face such a dramatic farewell from my roommate...
Yes, Mijin has left because she has finished her study for one semester...

I never had this kind of feeling...

Living abroad makes me want to try everything, I try to live with foreigners to know how it feels to share everything with other people, other culture... naked together, many weird sleep position, etc....


Last Night dinner with Mijin, last time i can cook and have dinner together with her in our kitchen ;(

I am quite grateful I can meet with Mijin. She is my first person to be shared a room with me...

The first day I came I already got a warm blanket from her previous Korean friends, ( things that are so useful for me!!!)

My first hangover also with her... :)

I would say that she has a good taste in things...

Before she left, she gave me a very sweet letter that I will always keep forever..... I almost cry today while reading it... I had an exam today. But I didnt care. I cooked for her last night, forgetting my exam just to spend more time with her... as I am getting older, I realized that the moment is very precious that can not be rewind.... exam, grades, money is just numbers, there will always a way to fix it, but the moment happiness is irreplaceable. Everyone wants to be the best student, the best employee, but a simple "the best roommate ever" could make me so honored this morning....

It makes me also think, if I do bad to people, I will feel guilty and bad towards that person, my heart will pounding heart, uncomfortable...but when we are separated, or far far away, never have to meet even in a blink of an eye, I will be happy then.... *evil*
Nowadays I try to be nice to everyone, I don know maybe my tolerance has become bigger, I can be more acceptable to people ( hope you feel the same way, too. hehe...) I am treated well, receive good feedback, but it also makes me suffering when I have to be separated from that person...

Isn't it painful then for both?

ah, I still have pending blog for December... will update it soon after I take a nap. Lots of story in December...


Lonely girl in Sweden,
Yustine Hendrika


Location: Sweden

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