2015 Birthday Bash in Sweden

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Actually I am a bit traumatized with birthday.....
During these last 4 years, I had several "disasters" before this day.... I still remembered how one of my colleagues sent a very embarassing email to our email group in the office (including bosses too!!) to wish me a birthday greetings, I didnt want to meet people or several days afterwards....hahaha
there was a time too when I had to prepare for go live project... for the whole week I couldn't have enough sleep. only 2-3 hours day. I celebrated it in the following month after having time to take a break for a while....
last year, 3 days before my birthday, Jakarta was full of flood, well that's kinda blessings in disguise though so I could work from home,but on my birthday the flood was suddenly dissapeared and I had to come and meet people again.
of course this year there is some "small disasters" too, the stories will come out next year, hahaha
but in the end, the whole year has their own memory...
2014 is supposed to be my last year to be "mischief" , travel so far, wasting time in Sweden, draining out my money just to have fun, making my parents worry.... But I learnt so much here, I understand now which I can sacrify , which I have to hold it tight....
I can't say enough thank you to all my friends, although I didnt write your names here, but I keep it in my heart. Thanks for all the efforts, we are so far, yet I still feel your love.....
when everything is so overwhelming, you will not waste your life in hateful people, you will not let yourself not being happy anymore.... I am 10,000 km from my blood family, but family is never about blood relationship, friends can be the family you choose yourself....
Thank you everyone. May all beings be happy always. I had a very memorable birthday in Sweden.

thanks guys, I thought i will be so lonely on my birthday here.. turns out it was one of my favourite ones!

forgot to buy the candle...

my birthday presents :D

my two favourite rascals in sweden sent me a video including Trulls to wish me 




someone sent me a bouquet of roses

The delivery man

I didnt ask for more......
I hope I am not just getting older, but happier and more beneficial for many human beings...

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