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 About 2022


Finally my biggest nightmare happened in 2022 where I lost my mom....

It has been 6 months since she left us, I still  feel weak when I remember about that moment.

The only person who always support me no matter what...

The only person whose cooking is second to none....

The only person who can feed my soul....

I feel like I am a dying person now.


Every success that I reached, it means nothing if I have no one to be brag with.

Every good things happen in my life, I remember whom I always called first, but she is not there anymore.


I do not understand this part of the life.


My relationship with her was not the lovey dovey one where I could kiss and hug her on any occassions.

She is actually the one who scolded me the most.....

But she is the one who showered me with love the biggest.


My regret comes from the thought if I did not treat her well enough when she was alive.

I did not treat her will when she was sick....

I felt like I could do better...

I felt like our time should still be there....

but on the other hand, I saw her struggling with her health already...


The happiest moment was when we can meet in the dreams, felt so real until I wake up and you were not there.

I know I am being selfish by doing this, I feel sad because noone loves me like you do.

Noone takes care of me like you do.

I am pretty sure that you are Bodhisattva that this universe sent to me...

My life is filled with blessings....


Universe, how and when can I meet my Mom again?

#losingmom


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