Thank you 2015

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So it happens again... the very last day everyday....
It is time to make a reflection for the whole year.

2015 for me has been ultimately awesome.
5 things that are so memorable for me this year :

1. Making my dream comes true by graduating a master degree abroad. yeah! I earned my Master of Science in Sweden.
My closest people know very well how I struggle to achieve this. things that I almost gave up. But then I made it. I am very grateful for that.
Graduation Pictures with my Indonesian friends in Nobel building. So proud and happy!

2.I got a job in Sweden. with a bonus of awesome colleagues.
I had to admit that I almost could not control my happiness when I knew that I am offered with this job in Stockholm. Everyday I asked my parents to pray for me, because my time was limited, otherwise I must have gone home and never come back. I believe somehow that my parents' pray that made it come true once again. My boss is a very good leader with humorous personality but charming in handling the problems. Peter, Sven and Ajay are my colleagues that are very supportive to me. yes, I am the only lady there! but they take care of me so well. I could not ask for better than this.
da team! <3

a flower bouquet on my first day at work.

I still remembered how nervous I was on my first day. I was so afraid that I am not capable enough or my colleagues will ignore me. But everything was perfect! perfect. My boss also invited us to have welcome dinner party together. That night I was so happy to death.

3.I become single again.
Haha.. yes this time it is not my favourite part. but I think it is better for both of us. You are still forever my kalyanamitta... :)

4.I can see aurora!!!!
I was failed in Kiruna, failed in Halmstad... In Iceland I can see Aurora with my bare eyes.
I am afraid so much that aurora hates me so much so it wont appear in front of me, turns out that it's not. I love you too, Aurora!

5. I am such a blessed human being. I hope next year I could be a blessing for other people as well.
Two days ago, I managed to be in touch with my spiritual teacher, it means that I will not leave my spiritual side aside. I still have a chance to improve it even though I am far far away from Vihara.
I feel so blessed and happy.


This year was very fantastic for me. full of surprise! maybe next year I will keep it calm, settling down and give back to other sentient beings. I have no complaints and I wish everybody will have a great great year ahead! 

Gott nytt år!!!





Location: Stockholm, Swedia

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