How does it feel to know your time limit?

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Have you ever watched "In Time" movie?
You know when your time to live is... How long you will survive.....

copied from disneydreaming.com


in my perspective,
the bad side is... you will feel the nerves  waiting for the day to come... maybe rushing.... maybe crying or just waiting in the corner until your time ends...

the good side is... suddenly your courage gains up to 2000% (hiperbolic a bit ;P)
you know which places you want to go without worrying who will accompany you, or your savings....
you know which persons whom you will say your last words with...
you will do whatever it takes to let them know how much they mean to you...
    without worrying how awkward it will be.
you will finish your masterpiece as your last gift to the world you left, suddenly you wont care about your sleep time anymore, since you will have one long one afterwards.
you will try to be as good as you can as a human being, smile more... help more people... your tolerance level get wider and bigger to everyone...
what else?

why do I keep finding the good side of it rather than the bad one?
I can easily write a couple of them more... but why this universe didn't let us know when is our time limit?

This topics popped up in my mind since I was realizing this April 30th 2015.... 3 months until my schengen visa ends....
Living in Sweden is one of the best things that have ever happened in my life, and I know the time limit.

What I felt is.... to be honest... I feel more sad than the time I had to leave Indonesia.
Because I know once I leave this, the possibility comes to zero, the time will be half past never unless it is for a family trip to europe someday, but it will be so much different!

Well I guess, the universe is kind enough to let us enjoy everymoment in our way... it's just sometimes we have to learn that it is better to always hope for a better tomorrow, but also prepare for the worse of today. That's make the regret will not be so painful. *finger crossed*

Location: Halmstad, Sweden

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