Living in The Present Happiness

Actually I am a bit traumatized with birthday..... During these last 4 years, I had several "disasters" before this day.... I still remembered how one of my colleagues sent a very embarassing email to our email group in the office (including bosses too!!) to wish me a birthday greetings, I didnt want to meet people or several days afterwards....hahaha there was a time too when I had to prepare for go live project... for the whole week I couldn't have enough sleep. only 2-3 hours  day. I celebrated it in the following month after having time to take a break for a while.... last year, 3 days before my birthday, Jakarta was full of flood, well that's kinda blessings in disguise though so I could work from home,but on my birthday the flood was suddenly dissapeared and I had to come and meet people again. of course this year there is some "small disasters" too, the stories will come out next year, hahaha but in the end, the whole year has their own me...

I would say that December 2014 was one of my favourite years so far... hahaha... seems like everything in Sweden is my favourite.... But this december there are many "first time" for me... 1. This december I got a very cool group in one of my courses, I really enjoy being together with them... It contains 4 Swedish people, 1 German and 1 Indonesia ( me ) , hahaha I would say that amongst those 4 Swedish, there is 1 Swedish who is not really "Swedish", his father is originally from Serbia, he has Eastern Europe personality, haha w will get back to that in the end section... But I really like them all. They are all so  so so so fun. Although we have to go to school everyday (because they are a hardworking type), but I felt happy, I am a devoted student too, it's boring to stay in the room. Very much different with my previous group. So after fiishing the course I invited them all to have a taste of Indonesian Food. Viktoria, Karin, Yustine, Martin, Pelle...

All I can say about this half of 2014 is....... AWESOME !!!!!!! I quit from  my comfort zone for 3 years. All fear and sadness came up at once when I decided to do this... I have to leave my good boss, clever mentors and nice colleagues... A lot of "what-if" shown up in my mind.... But here I am now... Once I left it, many good news are coming.. My top-five list of dreams come true this year!!! Granted a Scholarships from International Intitution for my Master Degree is a miracle for me. I dont know which part of my life that makes this come true, is it the part where I met Sami to finally learn Dhamma and understand it little by little? or is it the part where I try to sweep away my ego to share with people who need it the most in my limitation? or is it the part where I pray in Singapore and got a good prophecy? Well, I think they are all connected each other... One thing for sure is that this gratitude that makes me overwhelmed a whole body and soul and ...

2015 has showing his tongue for 16 days, but I have to face such a dramatic farewell from my roommate... Yes, Mijin has left because she has finished her study for one semester... I never had this kind of feeling... Living abroad makes me want to try everything, I try to live with foreigners to know how it feels to share everything with other people, other culture... naked together, many weird sleep position, etc.... Last Night dinner with Mijin, last time i can cook and have dinner together with her in our kitchen ;( I am quite grateful I can meet with Mijin. She is my first person to be shared a room with me... The first day I came I already got a warm blanket from her previous Korean friends, ( things that are so useful for me!!!) My first hangover also with her... :) I would say that she has a good taste in things... Before she left, she gave me a very sweet letter that I will always keep forever..... I almost cry today while reading it... I had an exam today. ...