Hello , October 2016!
I don't know why but there is a popular song called "Wake me up when September ends".
What happened with September, actually?
For me myself, It is not my favorite month either.
My mood was swinging up and down in that month.... I had two travelling to AMS and HAM on this month for my job, which were usually my mood booster.
I have reached a phase where I finally give up on allowing external controls the inside me. It suits with the autumn season, where it shows that letting go can also be beautiful.
Talking about letting go.... I saw one movie trailer called "the Swedish Theory of Love" :
https://www.facebook.com/481767088670415/videos/481770962003361/
To be honest, I have not watched the movie myself. But the trailer gave me quite a thought-provoking sense...
Is it true how this heaven on earth is actually losing its human value?How could a man die for two years without anyone noticing? What if I die later, would somebody miss me?
I started questioning myself, if this is the life that I ever wanted for all my life....
It is true that I felt annoyed a lot with my big family, they are so noisy and full of curiosity. But there is nothing that I can not hide from them. They accept my flaws. Whenever I fall, I know they will still be there without leaving me.
Leaving in Indonesia is hard, you have to survive for your own's self. There is no government spoiling you for school, health or pension like here. That makes it easier for people to share the pain together. Family helps each other. (Real) Friends support each other.
then my question is, which one suits socialist more? does socialist mean togetherness in the end? If it makes you separate from other people because you can live by yourself and the system, Do you actually live together with the system?
There was one interesting experience I had during my HAM trip. I met this lady with tattoos. apparently we made friends and got to know each other. She is so nice and has a pure heart, I can tell during this short trip. It is easy to define. while we were waiting at the bus station, we saw a girl has her car broken down and she initiated to ask if she needed our help or not and ta-da we were so lucky to have an opportunity to push the car for the girl.
From the outer look, in Indonesia, she has no chance to be my friend, but here I learn to be more open-minded and you can not judge people based on race, skin color or the tattoos on their body,or you will miss a chance to learn to become a better human being.
I miss my family so much, and I do not want to die alone later...
In the end there is no perfection in this world. I will do my best to stay in touch with the people I love around the world, my colleagues, all people who are kind to me. And I hope they know that I never have bad intentions for them for all this time. I might be a strange girl, not so warm one, but there is nothing bad I pray for anyone in this world. This world is better with love than money and pride.
For anyone who reads this, may you be happy and have a great life to face everyday......
What happened with September, actually?
For me myself, It is not my favorite month either.
My mood was swinging up and down in that month.... I had two travelling to AMS and HAM on this month for my job, which were usually my mood booster.
I have reached a phase where I finally give up on allowing external controls the inside me. It suits with the autumn season, where it shows that letting go can also be beautiful.
Talking about letting go.... I saw one movie trailer called "the Swedish Theory of Love" :
https://www.facebook.com/481767088670415/videos/481770962003361/
To be honest, I have not watched the movie myself. But the trailer gave me quite a thought-provoking sense...
Is it true how this heaven on earth is actually losing its human value?How could a man die for two years without anyone noticing? What if I die later, would somebody miss me?
I started questioning myself, if this is the life that I ever wanted for all my life....
It is true that I felt annoyed a lot with my big family, they are so noisy and full of curiosity. But there is nothing that I can not hide from them. They accept my flaws. Whenever I fall, I know they will still be there without leaving me.
Leaving in Indonesia is hard, you have to survive for your own's self. There is no government spoiling you for school, health or pension like here. That makes it easier for people to share the pain together. Family helps each other. (Real) Friends support each other.
then my question is, which one suits socialist more? does socialist mean togetherness in the end? If it makes you separate from other people because you can live by yourself and the system, Do you actually live together with the system?
There was one interesting experience I had during my HAM trip. I met this lady with tattoos. apparently we made friends and got to know each other. She is so nice and has a pure heart, I can tell during this short trip. It is easy to define. while we were waiting at the bus station, we saw a girl has her car broken down and she initiated to ask if she needed our help or not and ta-da we were so lucky to have an opportunity to push the car for the girl.
From the outer look, in Indonesia, she has no chance to be my friend, but here I learn to be more open-minded and you can not judge people based on race, skin color or the tattoos on their body,or you will miss a chance to learn to become a better human being.
I miss my family so much, and I do not want to die alone later...
In the end there is no perfection in this world. I will do my best to stay in touch with the people I love around the world, my colleagues, all people who are kind to me. And I hope they know that I never have bad intentions for them for all this time. I might be a strange girl, not so warm one, but there is nothing bad I pray for anyone in this world. This world is better with love than money and pride.
For anyone who reads this, may you be happy and have a great life to face everyday......
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