Living in The Present Happiness

Today I realized that kindness has many forms.. Kindness is the same language that everyone will understand... These several weeks I experienced so many culture shock... But deep inside my heart I believe that he is a kind man.... so, there is no reason for me to get angry with him... A unique understanding and feeling... You just can not get angry no matter how annoyed you feel, just because you know that he is a good guy, and you still like him anyway... :")

I am the type of the girl who will not be survive the LDR for more than 6 months , I guess... because it feels so fake when you did not meet someone for that long.. the feeling dissapears over time.... That is why now I'm single. The fact is currently I am thinking what happened with this human brain... ( by the means human = my brain). I keep falling in love with the bad guy, logically we are not supposed to be together by all means. But it happens again and again until I am tired of myself.... WHY??? The reason why I feel tired is because when I do fall in love, I become so stupid, doing things I shouldn't do, allow him hurt myself.... while others are waiting for me patiently.. understanding me and try to comfort me... Why does my feeling can not feel the way my brain thinks? SO tired....

Have you ever watched "In Time" movie? You know when your time to live is... How long you will survive..... copied from disneydreaming.com in my perspective, the bad side is... you will feel the nerves  waiting for the day to come... maybe rushing.... maybe crying or just waiting in the corner until your time ends... the good side is... suddenly your courage gains up to 2000% (hiperbolic a bit ;P) you know which places you want to go without worrying who will accompany you, or your savings.... you know which persons whom you will say your last words with... you will do whatever it takes to let them know how much they mean to you...     without worrying how awkward it will be. you will finish your masterpiece as your last gift to the world you left, suddenly you wont care about your sleep time anymore, since you will have one long one afterwards. you will try to be as good as you can as a human being, smile more... help more people... your tolerance level...