About 2022 Finally my biggest nightmare happened in 2022 where I lost my mom.... It has been 6 months since she left us, I still feel weak when I remember about that moment. The only person who always support me no matter what... The only person whose cooking is second to none.... The only person who can feed my soul.... I feel like I am a dying person now. Every success that I reached, it means nothing if I have no one to be brag with. Every good things happen in my life, I remember whom I always called first, but she is not there anymore. I do not understand this part of the life. My relationship with her was not the lovey dovey one where I could kiss and hug her on any occassions. She is actually the one who scolded me the most..... But she is the one who showered me with love the biggest. My regret comes from the thought if I did not treat her well enough when she was alive. I did not treat her will when she was sick.... I felt like I could do better... I felt like our t...
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How to Deal with Emotional Exhaustion
In the last couple of months, life has been tough on me. Mostly due to my mother's condition..... As the only child, I feel responsible to take care of her, as I do not see anyone can do that. I want her to have the best medication that one can have....It is painful to be restless while treating her. Suddenly all my past glory and ยจ'arrogrance' hit me: I used to be able to plan many years ahead, at this age, I should do this, become this and that, have this much money etc etc... When I looked back, how arrogant I am. While now, I live day by day hoping the best result can happen magically. I must be strong , to my mother, to my child, to my family.... In the end, I felt beaten, and started asking why me? This is very hard for one person to take. Until I watched a youtube video from Ajahn Brahm about emotional exhaustion that appeared suddenly on my timeline. There was another person asking Ajahn what to do when things get tough and she felt emotional exhaustion? Ajahn ...