Living in The Present Happiness

Limbo is defined as a condition where you are in the middle of heaven and hell. But you are in none of them. (   F.D.Wellem. Kamus Sejarah Gereja. Jakarta: BPK Gunung Mulia 2009). Too scary topics?? If you were my regular readers, you will know that it won't be.... In my perspective, there is no such thing as heaven or hell in the future. It has already started while we are living NOW. If you feel sad because your boyfriend treats you bad.... that is hell. If you feel happy because you just got the highest score on the exam...that is heaven. If you feel sad because you have to be separated with the people you love... that is hell. If you feel happy because you can make other people happy... that is heaven. As simple as that. For me, I am in my Limbo at this moment right now. I dont know what I should do after this.  But I believe, this universe has never stopped to surprise me. I will pray, try and let the best come along. Wish me luck!

The moment you realized when the universe granted your wishes, your body will have a weird sensation that makes you can not stay still. Then when, in reality, what you gets compares to what you wishes is much much better... the thrill becomes more.... it treats your body like.. drugs (maybe?) you get addicted more and more... The problem comes up when in the end, your wishes come to an end. Everything has an end , doesn't it? One month left before I finish my study in Sweden... Several invitations for farewell dinner parties, farewell Europe trip, farewell buffet lunch have intrigued me... It is nice to have a party and trip together, but farewell? Just imagining them makes me so deeply sad. There is something wrong when you saw a duck is so happy sun-bathing in Sweden, you feel jealous with it... How come it can be so lucky to stay in Sweden? In Halmstad...? whole its life.... I notice every single thing that I will miss later on.... Because this time is precious, th...